Each of us goes through painful experiences in life, and sometimes they cause us to ask what God’s plan is for us. Today on CNN’s religion blog, Pastor Rob Bell shares the trying experience of contracting meningitis while he was in college and how that changed his life. Here is an excerpt from his writing:
I was devastated. This was not how it was supposed to go. The band was my life, my future, my singular focus. We had just canceled our biggest gigs ever. Eventually I recovered enough to return to school but things weren’t the same. Whatever had been driving us in the band wasn’t there like it had been before and so we came to the mutual conclusion that it had been great while it lasted and now it was time for the band to come to an end.
I don’t think I’d ever felt more lost. I had no idea what I was going to do with my life. I had all this energy and passion and I wanted desperately to give myself to something that mattered, but I had no plan.
I would walk around campus in a daze, muttering the same prayer over and over, which took the form of “Now what?”
Do you know that feeling when you’re playing soccer and you lunge for the ball but you aren’t fast enough and the player on the other team has already kicked it quite hard and the ball travels with ferocious velocity and force into your groin region and you keel over, gasping for breath, your voice several octaves higher?
It was like the existential version of that.
And then, things took a strange, beautiful turn.
To read the whole retelling of his experience and how God works through suffering to open up new paths for us, check out his article here.
How has God worked through the trials of your life? Does Rob Bell’s experience resonate at all with your own?